School has done nothing but give me huge eyebags, unbearable migraines and I feel tired. All. The. Time. I’m left with exactly a month to get my shit together and work hard to get through promos, then I’m left with 2-3 months of holidays. It’s okay Tiara, all this for good grades, all this for a place in uni.
I miss my girls. All my girls. We’re all busy, no scratch that, it’s just me. I’m the one that’s always busy, can’t help it now can I? This has got to end.
The reason why it’s hard for me to open up easily.
Yes, I might be mean, I might seem like I don’t care. But I do, just that I’m being pretty chilled about this. I still can’t let go of things. Words never mean a thing, actions are everything to me. I just can’t bring myself to let people in so easily. Well, not anymore. Not now. Not yet.
So, spent my Friday with S! Miss this girl so much, the others too! Can’t wait to meet up with everyone together!
Anyway, we broke our fast with H and I first at fep. Been awhile since we saw the both of em. Met I at the interchange, the boy’s grown now, but he still can’t beat mwa. Mehehe. Trained to Orchard to meet S and H. H hasn’t changed abit. I don’t know why we had a ‘thing’ before but as they say, love makes you blind. Funny, I didn’t love him yet now did I? Perddy awkward through the night between H and me, S felt it too. She was getting pissed off. If i print screened the bbm chat we had, you’d understand. The rest of the time till buka, wasnt too good. Constant reminders of the reasons why H’s a friend now. Anymore than that, I’ll prolly kill myself in the relationship. Shall not dwell on what happened during buka.
Left the both of them after dinner, things were getting really weird. I could’ve come with us, but he chose to stay with H. We really couldn’t be bothered with H, so we headed to Esplanade to check out Baybeats for abit. Saw a few people, said hi, and walked around. We were getting bored and the place was hot as hell, so we left for Starbucks at City Hall. Got our drinks, paid and left. Wuz about 10 plus by then, we headed home, well S did. I went off to Geylang to meet my mum and aunts. Pree good night with S, I’m so happy for her now as happy as she is for me :’)
It’s times like these that I need to pull through weeks of harsh timetables and actually keeps me sane. Friends? Naw-uh, thank God for girlfriends.